Where I’ve Been and What’s Next

Hello, my beautiful besties

Who else is shocked that it has been ten weeks? Ten whole weeks? It actually feels unbelievable, I have been writing this for ten weeks, you have been reading it for ten weeks.

This week we are going to do a simple update on Frankfurter the dachshund, life itself, my autism, just a little simple life update. 

Let us start with Frankfurter the dachshund, he is now six months old, I can not believe it that he is six months old, and I have had him for four months now honestly, I can not imagine life without him anymore, and I can not remember life before him really, it’s like he has been here forever. It has not become any less over whelming, he is still loud, and does not listen, he is still a little menace, but it is like having your own child no matter how annoying he is mine and I love him more than anything. If you are thinking of getting one, do it. Do it. Do it. It may seem like it is hard work from videos and online and I will not lie to you, it is hard work, but it is so worth it. 

Life itself, life is sometimes just a blah isn’t it? Sometimes it feels like life is on a stand still, it is not moving anywhere even though you are doing a lot of things, it is weird. I am a university student, going for my dreams but right now it feels like my life is stood still, not moving forward, not moving backward, just sat in one place, and I do not completely know how to move forward or change the path of life, I write, I read, I go out and see people, I try and it just feels at a stand still. Does anyone else get this feeling? Feel this feeling?

Autism is weird, some weeks I am what seems to be very autistic, and some weeks it is as if I do not have autism, which is weird because obviously autism does not just come and go, it is there forever. It is there for life, you can not just get rid of it. So I never understand how some weeks it is as if my autism is less and some weeks more. I get autistic stims/tics, and some weeks they are so bad and some non-existent, I have a little stutter and some weeks I 

can barely talk with it, while some weeks you would not even know I had it. 

I graduate soon, my last university assignment is in May, which is so scary! And then in September I start my master's in creative writing and publishing so even more scary. I am hopefully planning on getting a part-time graduate job while doing my masters, it takes a lot of research to find the right one but getting my foot in the door would really help me for after I finish my masters, and currently I am starting a job in a nursery until I start my masters as my current university is The Open University therefore it is from home. I know I stated I feel like my life is at a stand still then named lots of things going on, but by stand still I mean me, my world, it is like it is not moving or turning, it is a weird feeling when things are happening but you feel as though your world is not moving. 

Next week we are going to be discussing autism vs concerts, recently I have been going to a few so thought we should talk about it. 

How has everyone’s year been so far? Any exciting things happening? 

As always, my besties speaking to you has been a joy.

Love,

Your autistic bestie 

Book of the week: Jane Austen Pride and Prejudice